i have never felt so stupid as today *
- feelin9s for the day -
went to lo0k for job with `mel0dy today. but unfortunately. none. WE WENT TO THE WRON9 PLACE.!
`miss lee says tanjon9 pa9ar. we know that we are 9oin9 to tanjon9 pa9ar. in the end. we end up in tion9 bahru without knowin9 it. the main problem is because both stops are just a stop away from outram park. only in different direction.
`melody: we are in tion9 bahru plaza.
`miss lee: i said tanjon9 pa9ar!!!
`mel0dy: oOoOooOhHh.......
for9et it.
{ not awake from Os level stress }
dreamt of somethin9 so horrible yesterday ni9ht.
i dreamt that i am havin9 E maths paper 2 on friday. then i panicked. cus i tore my entry pro0f le. nvm. i found the other one.
the exam started at 1030 am i remembered so clearly. in the end. i am late. i cry & cry. saw mr rahim at my house downstairs. there is just no link at all. mr rahim with mathematics?
nonsense dream. really.
but nvm. i am 9lad that Os is over. still quite happy about it. the excitment is not yet destroyed. muahahaha. (:
{ chan9e of blo9skin }
finally found a blo9 with a brown back9round. because only in this way i can have my favourite colour combination. BROWN & PINK. thou9h i not exactly LOVE pink.
so happy that i chan9ed without thinkin9 twice.
(: love it.
you will never ima9ine yourself doin9.
it is 9oin9 to be loads of fun. *
(:
- advice of the day -
people involved: `evelyn `huishi `hensen `jin min9 `victor `wei chuan. & a bunch of stran9ers?
where: outside heeren
when: today no0n.
why: an award of 10 000 bucks. free handphone. & also helpin9 a friend.
how: this is 9oin9 to be real funny.
i never ima9ine myself squeezin9 into a new 9 seater car with 50 people. just for 150 bucks & a handphone. can you ima9ine how many thin9s i can buy with that 150 bucks.
sadly. we didnt win. ALMOST thou9h. we mana9e to have 50 people inside the car at the 2nd attempt. we think. cooperate. sweat. lau9h. have fun. SQUEEZE.
the winner also mana9e to squeeze 50 only. but they are on the winnin9 side because they were faster. BUT. they all so small size. so tiny nor. & we all are like bi99er size & 18-19 years of a9e. so can you ima9ine how powerful we are to squeeze in as many people as the hobbits?
hahaz.x. wanna know the details.? visit evelyn's blo9.
funny & 9o0d experience. i am lovin9 it.
{ lon9 lost friend }
i am so happy now. just found my lon9 lost friend. `michelle.
i keep findin9 her all alon9. but just have no idea where she is. now. she found me in my blo9. last time we are real 9reat buddies. typical sisters- friends. miss her so much & now i finally found her i think my mama will be happy for me to0.
i am 9oin9 to tell my mama tommorrow & see if she still remembers her.
in the past we are like stick to one another everywhere we 9o lor. always eat the teddy bears biscuit & sit under the staircase chit chat. it was like primary 3.? wow. time flies.
in the end. she smart la. 9o special pro9ramme what not. then she left my scho0l. that time i cry like donoh what. (:
now that i found her. i am so freakin9 happy. real happy.
till to all the fun-s. *
- my feelin9s -
eureka's chalet is fun nor. 9ees. or9anised. all thanks to `maureen.
play po0l. bBq. wild wild wet. etc.
tokin9 about wild wild wet. i was with such wron9 company i should say. `snow `hensen `yon9 chen9 `qiwen. but it is nonsensical. fun. chaotic. childish. but i like it. (:
anyway. after the chalet i went to sin9apore poly open house. saw the 3 superstars. ok la. still `kelly sin9s the best i think.
{ job huntin9 }
still job-less at the time bein9. cannot find a definite job yet. i think i can find waitress job more easily since i have the experience. but. don have the cravin9 to serve food yet. maybe next time ba. i just want to try somethin9 new. left my contact numbers with a no. of shops. waitin9 endlessly for the calls.
(: hopefully i can find the job i wan & i like.
{ david tao }
i missed the chance to see him nor. i almost have the chance to 9o to the concert. freakin9 sad.
ta.ta. 9ot the chance to 9o. hope he have fun there ba. he represent me jiu hao le. (:
{ taiwan }
my bro 9oin9 taiwan for service le.
take care orhs, 9e9e. muacks.
9oin9 airport later. (:
wanna eat ice cream. don care.
take a rest for the whole day.
or.
you may fall sick orhs!*
- advice of the day -
yesterday nv update my blo9. don blame me. i sick na. so. ya. for9iven.
hehez.x.
sick till quite serious. feelin9 so hot. (:
suppose to 9o watch just like heaven with `snow de. in the end cannot nor. don wanna disturb her ma. then in the end still 9ot so many li9ht bulbs. if i know earlier. i thick skin 9o le.
i re9ret not 9oin9 to watch lor. `snow describe till so freakin9 nice. somemore she rarely say a show very nice de nor. so. if she says nice. it is freakin9 nice.
hai. turn back time please?
{ a stron9 son9 }
I will not make the same mistakes that you did
I will not let myself cause my heart so much misery
I will not break the way you did
You fell so hard
I've learned the hard way, to never let it get that far
Because of you
I never stray too far from the sidewalk
Because of you
I learned to play on the safe side
So I don't get hurt
Because of you
I find it hard to trust
Not only me, but everyone around me
Because of you
I am afraid
I lose my way
And it's not too long before you point it out
I cannot cry
Because I know that's weakness in your eyes
I'm forced to fake, a smile, a laugh
Every day of my life
My heart can't possibly break
When it wasn't even whole to start with
I watched you die
I heard you cry
Every night in your sleep
I was so young
You should have known better than to lean on me
You never thought of anyone else
You just saw your pain
And now I cry
In the middle of the night
For the same damn thing
Because of you
I never stray too far from the sidewalk
Because of you
I learned to play on the safe side
So I don't get hurt
Because of you
I tried my hardest just to forget everything
Because of you
I don't know how to let anyone else in
Because of you
I'm ashamed of my life because it's empty
Because of you
I am afraid
Son9 By: Kelly Clarkson --- Because of you
love this son9 to bits. ever since the first time i heard the son9. without knowin9 the lyrics. now that i know the lyrics. i feel quite sad for the son9.
if this son9 really represent someone's feelin9. it is not very pleasant, isn't it.?
we learn by example. if the example does not have a fulfillin9 life & pass every despondent day with tears. we tend to see life as a cruel pathway instead.
my examples who are my family are rather optismistic. thou9h i am not VERY optismistic. but. ok la. not to0 bei 9uan till wanna commit suicide. in fact. i love myself quite a lot. i find committin9 suicide is a fo0lish thin9 to do. but sometimes it is understandable. worst of all is to commit suicide for love. cannot understand it.
indeed. life belon9s to ourselves. but we must never for9et the persons who give us the life.
(:
{ chalet }
i am 9oin9 for chalet le. class 9atherin9. hehez.x. must be very fun le. cannot wait till it.
i am stayin9 overni9ht. muahahaha. so happy.
at a time.
& fulfil my task. *
- advice of the day -
{ reflection}
人群里面那个我，把幸福遗落。
那曾经走过的路口，我停了你却走。
我想捂住我的耳朵，听不见你说：
爱就在此刻，松手 分手 放手。
我猜不透，不猜透。
和你背对背的走。
原来怪我没有，
没有爱情的天分，你才要走。
我想要学会自我催眠，痛觉会少一点。
潜意识作祟，想着想到失眠。
我躺在没有你的房间，
寂寞更加明显。
我渐渐的自我催眠，
却回不到从前。
等着红灯那个我，
还会向前走。
也许那幸福的执着，
在下一个路口。
专属铃声我还留着，却静静沉默。
在我们之间，爱了 放了 散了。
我会不说，不想说。
怕说了也没有用。
现在我的幽默，
只是掩饰着心痛，我的难过。
我想要学会自我催眠，
聪明再多一些。
潜意识作祟，想着想到失眠。
我走在没有你的世界，却走不到永远。
我渐渐的自我催眠，慢慢闭上双眼。
son9 By: 罗志祥 --- 自我催眠
watched this show de mtv. i must say. other than mtvs. i nv seen another one that is so freakin9 nice.
hahaz.x.
the main actors just continue lau9hin9. ne9ectin9 the sad side of themselves.
there are these words at the side:
你是真的快乐吗？
还是害怕承认？
以为这样痛苦才会少一点。
所以选择催眠自己。
装着看不见，
这样快乐就不会离去。
maybe. it is the best way to console oneself ba. treat it as nothin9 will happen. maybe somethin9 that i always hope that i can do. but it is not easy at all. not at all.
{ play po0l }
went to play po0l today. fun la. `derek `yien very lousy today. hahaz.x.
ok la. better than wo.
(:
then i left my stuffs at the place when i left. one 9uy ran all the way down to return. wow. impressed. cus he lo0ked a bit -ben9-. `minty min & `eve were like. buy him a drink.!
no way nor. stran9er to him. how can buy. hahaz.x. money precious. stin9y of me. but really no need ma. don't even know who is the 9uy. thanks him anyway.
{ ta.ta }
9ees. very cold toni9ht. ta.ta send wo home orhs. so lon9 nv see him le.
(:
* it has been a lon9 lon9 time.
&
this is 9oin9 to be a lon9 lon9 post. *
- my feelin9s -
{ my new bao bei-s }
NO. 1 in sequence.
my brother 9ave my mother a do9 on her birthday. she is so cute nor. her name is Si Si. hahaz.x. funny name i know. but she will only respond to this name.
i love Si Si.
NO. 2 in sequence.
i am so in love with the new movie carto0n character that even `minty min scold me: "OVER!!"
(:
he is none other than `chicken little. so freakin9 cute nor he. then keep dance & dance.
{ my 9an xian9 }
durin9 this period of Os. i studied with `minty min almost every ni9ht. then sometimes. we tok a lot.
that time. she said that. actually within the whole lot of us. i am the most pampered de. hmmm. she made me think for a lon9 time & i a9ree with what she said ba.
not pampered physically. but mentally.
but not very 9o0d orh`minty min. easily 9et hurt orh. (:
{ harry potter }
watched it yesterday ni9ht. it is marvellous. BUT!! the senior so handsome. how can he die.? so unfair. hahaz.x. ok. i am bias to handsome hunks.
after that went to eat dinner. zhimin9 send `eve home le. jiu brin9 me. by. ye. sb. to chan9i see transexuals. correct spellin9?
i am freak off thou9h. hahaz.x. tried to hide myself. i so scared till that i dreamt of one of them came chasin9 after our car. 9od. scary. anyway. reach home at 3 plus. creepy time.
{ O level }
okie. i cried for history. it was so not-me durin9 the exam. i just went blank when the question is about cultural revolution & i wrote a perfect essay of Great Leap Forward. saw the difference?
moreover. i spent a lon9 20 mins on it. i almost went berserk lor. chan9ed immediately. 10 mins on it. then 15 mins on the 2nd essay. the rest on sourcebase. how can i write my essay so fast?!
i am disappointed cus i rely to0 much on wo de humanities le.
the rest of the subject is do-able. but. physics & en9lish is tou9h.
no more studies.
{ bye NCHS }
十年后的今天遇见你，
年少轻狂已远去。
成熟稳重也保持距离，
沉默里千言万语。
时光回到那年夏天，
公车站前你笑容满面。
拍拍我的头，说： “你好吗？”
一句问候填满青春，
别人的话都听不见。
岁月凝结在你的视线。
我还记得那年倾盘大雨。
狼狈奔跑穿越几条街。
握紧的双手，为爱的不顾一切。
我还记得那年你的声音。
耳边回荡那一句誓言。
你吻我的脸，都是我心中，
收藏一生的快乐。
渐渐我们都有新朋友，
多久不再并肩走。
忙忙碌碌看人生匆匆，
忘记了年轻的梦。
好想回到那年夏天，
教室门前你笑容满面。
拍拍我的头，说：“ 你别哭。”
考坏一次不是末日，
未来还有很长的路。
我们要一起去看世界。
我还记得那年晴空万里，
那一道飞机云的弧线。
蜿蜒着思念，写下故事的总结。
我还记得那年你的年轻，
刻在从前最美的时间。
在我生命里，你不曾告别，不曾走远。
与你重逢前一个夜晚，往事在梦中上演。
终要去体验，真实人生的残缺。
- Son9 By: 梁静茹--我还记得 -
everythin9 is in the lyrics. i like the son9. it is nice. really.
i will never for9et:
- sassy 9 cube come pattin9 on my head. tellin9 me not to cry.
- `melody `kailin9 `maureen puttin9 all our efforts & bein9 devoted to S.C.S.
- sleepin9 on the same bed with `huishi at ni9ht. eh. funny phasin9 of words.
in my life. my friends have never say 9o0dbye to me. (:
P.S. ok. i 9o watch fullhouse le. tata~